Hate Poker, Life, Etc...

So anyway, it turns out I'm really bad at poker. Probably on the biggest downswing of my short poker career. In the past 2 weeks, I have lost roughly 30% of my online bankroll and around 15% of my entire bankroll. There really shouldn't be a difference but I was kinda hoping not to have to redeposit anytime in the near future. Not that I am getting close to busto or anything I just am feeling a lot of pressure to get a decent score. Enough whining though, I'm just gonna continue to play and if I go busto then I go busto.
Won't be playing tonight cuz I have family stuff and possibly not tomorrow either. Think I am going to try and play about an 8 hour session of cash on Saturday and make some of the money back I have lost recently. I gotta do something, I can't just continue to give away like 5% of my bankroll every single day. Got to around the bubble of a $109 on stars and ended up busting making what I believe now to be a terrible call. I think I would have folded the hand but I didn't have any time bank because my comp had been messing up earlier in the night. I kinda paniced and hit call and gg.
On another note, pretty excited about the new FTP sunday tourney ($256 knockout). Not that it fits in my bankroll but maybe I can hit a satellite into it or something. I don't know why i love these damn k/o's so much b/c I think i have probably accumulated a total of ~4 knockouts in the 20 i have played but it just sounds so damn fun.
I'll try and give an update on Sunday or Monday on how the weekend went and if I scooped the inaugural Sunday Brawl. Today is my last day of work until after the Sugar Bowl so I'm pretty excited. I should get to play a lot of cards over the break. Lol, don't know whether thats a good thing or a bad thing. I'll either have liked 10k online or busto after this break I feel like but I'll hope for the latter. Also, I'm gonna try and start updating my bankroll on each individual site on here again mostly because I want myself to have to look at it on a regular basis. So here goes...

Absolute: $1027
FTP: $1391
Stars: $1441

Total: $3859 down from around 5.3k on December 8th

Good luck and F dg and romes.....